I think I'm getting sick...
I woke up freezing and hot chocolate didn’t help at all. My head is killing me and my muscles are super sore from practising yesterday.
And I have a TON of homework to do. Today’s definitely not a good day.
October 2012
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I just… couldn’t do that to him. Please don’t tell him. I…. I’ll stick up for myself sometime soon.
I won’t.
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I couldn’t do that to him, San. I just… couldn’t.
You’re too good, you know that? But Blaine, he has to realize that not all in life revolves around unicorns, stupid outfits and Big Apple dreams. You’re a part of his life too, he needs to remember that. I could talk to him if you don’t want to.
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I can’t tell him that, Santana. That would just… break him. I couldn’t! I physically couldn’t do that to him.
It would break him, but he’s breaking you without even realising.
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We haven’t talked in forever, Santana. He doesn’t really… let me talk about myself. I just… It’s hard for me, San. Every time we talk it’s about New York and… I just… I can’t do this anymore.
He’s excited. New York is his dream and it’s all so new to him… But, have you tried telling him that?
So… I… haven’t talked to him in a week. That’s okay though, right? Kurt’s… fine. He’s just busy in New York. He’s having a great time… there… without me.
I really need him right now. I… I just really need him. I’ll keep pretending everything’s fine, but it’s really not.Another busy week at school…. hooray. I’m glad we didn’t have school today.
You’re making me really depressed right now, Blaine. What’s going on? I know how it feels to miss the one that you love, I miss Brittany everyday. Kurt’s in New York living the dream. I’m sure he really loves you, he’s just busy…
Skype Chat || Tina & Santana
- Tina: sighed softly, listening intently to Santana. She balanced the computer on her knees for a moment, before leaning forward slightly. "Are you okay?" she asked, raising an eyebrow. She hadn't been expecting such an underwhelming answer from Santana. "I sort of figured you'd be raising hell by now," she said with a smirk, laughing. It was so strange to think that only a month ago, things had just been...normal, everyone had been together, and now everyone was all over the country. "Everything is...fine," she said with a frown. "It's just kind of lonely, to be completely honest."
- Santana: shrugged when Tina asked if she was ok. "I'm fine. I have to be fine, y'know?" she sighed quietly. Tina had never been one of her closest friends, to be honest, Santana couldn't remember talking to her in the first year she joined Glee Club. But for some reason, she felt she could trust her. "Yeah, well, college it's really diferent from high school.", she laughed with Tina. "I know, I feel so lonely here, I wished I was still over there with you guys. It was so much easier."
You didn’t win, not even close. Your talent can’t touch mine. We both know it. You’re good, but not that good. And me? Looking miserable? Please. All I can remember is the look on your face when I threw that slushie.
I figured they’d at least be a bit more of a challenge. They’re not? Good for me then. It’s not like I can’t do the work, but why bother when I don’t have to? Nope. None of your business.
Oh, I’m sorry, I keep seeing you moving your lips, but no words come out, just a bunch of bullshit. And that slushie costed you admitting all that on tape. I’m sorry I’m not sorry about that.
Right, right. It sounds a lot like a super nasty excuse, ‘cause you’re too dumb to it by yourself?
Excuse me. That club is very serious. I am offended, Tana. And I’m just… I need to keep busy.
I know, I know, I’ve seen myself in a mirror.
I don’t get how that could be anything serious but ok… Well, do what you want, I mean, who am I to tell you that you’ll die of exhaustion in a few days. Not that I worry about you or anything.
Oh, have you? I had no idea. I always assumed you put your hair gel without a mirror.
She should.
Okay, sounds good. I just gotta finish some of this algebra homework… Unless you wanna help with it well we Skype?
I know, why won’t you come here and tell her that?
Hm… I guess I can try to help you. I don’t really remember algebra too well, I had some kid doing my homework last year.
Skype Chat || Tina & Santana
- Tina: grinned, waving slightly back at Santana as she leaned back against her pillows. "Hey, girl," she said. "How's Kentucky treating you so far?" she asked, playing with her hair as she fidgeted.
- Santana: kept smilling as she put her computer on her lap. "Good, I guess." She shrugged. "Some days aren't as good as the others, but there's something I have to deal with." She sighed softly; she probably had more bad days than good ones. Everything was so different now and it was hard to get used to. Santana missed everything, she missed her old life; but all of that was gone and she had to move on with her life. "What about Lima? How's everything going?" she asked, resting her chin on her left hand.
Now why would I have something for you from Paris? If you’re really nice, maybe next time I’ll bring something back for you.
Yeah, but they’re so much easier to bribe in high school. A person can get used to anything, if it happens often enough. I do have someone to miss, but quite frankly, that is none of your business.
Well, I haven’t gotten my trophy for winning in our duel of Smooth Criminal. Yes, winning that in your school felt awazingly good but I would like something I can touch so I can remember the miserable look on your face when you lost.
How would you know? You’ve never been in college, you can bribe college teachers too, you know. Right, I’m sorry Mr. Moody, it really isn’t none of my business.
No, no, I didn’t join any sporty clubs, except maybe the Zombie Survival Club… that’s a pretty intense club. A job? I… Probably pot but knowing me, I’ll do it anyhow. I just gotta keep busy for my Senior Year.
Of course they do, San. You’re Santana Lopez. You’re the hottest Girl I know.
Zombie Survival Club, really? Is that even a thing? Why do you want to be so busy? You’ll be exhausted in a couple of weeks.
Duh, of course. I already knew that Blaine, but thank you. You’re really not that bad either I must say.
Does she know that?
My mouth isn’t.. awkward. :| But yeah, Skyping tonight sounds awesome. Do you have a song in mind?
I don’t know. Probably not.
It is, but it can be cute… sometimes. Great! Skype me whenever you can. Hm, not really, no. You?
Skype Chat || Tina & Santana
- Tina: fiddled around with her computer for a moment, making sure that camera was working before she opened up Skype and clicked on Santana's name, waiting patiently for the request to go through. Despite trying to keep her positive attitude the past few weeks, it felt like it was slowly crumbling around her, and if anyone knew what she might be going through, Santana would be the one.
- Santana: was sitting on her bed with her laptop next to her. Sad music had brought feelings that she had avoided for the past few weeks. Nothing could cheer her up today. It was one of those days that she thought 'why am I even alive' the moment she woke up. She looked over to her computer, half-smiling, realizing Tina was calling her on Skype. Santana accepted the call and Tina's face popped up on the screen. "Hey, Tina."
mstanalopez replied to your post: I wish things were easier sometimes. I wish things…
Yeah, same.
I want this feeling to go away. I hate being sad like this.
I know. Skype me. Let’s be sad together.
Hey, it’s what I’m used to.
I bet. I hear some college teachers actually care about their assignments being completed. You’ll get used to it though. Missing people. And you’ll meet new people.
Nice. I’m hoping you brought me something from Paris.
Don’t all teachers want their assignments completed? How can someone get used to it? You probably don’t have anyone to miss, but still. No offense.
